So again I'm asking the question.....why is it that I'm still single? Ask most people what they look for in a partner, and the answers are nearly always very similar: funny, intelligent, attractive. Let's throw modesty aside for a moment, and just admit I've got the first two down. So we're left with attractive--admittedly, I'm not a model, and my body is far from ideal...but I'm not freakish either. All things considered, I'd say I'm fairly average.

But the truth is, that list needs to be inverted, and attractive should be bolded and underlined with an exclamation mark. It's a reasonable conclusion--the typical gay man is shallow. Normally I hate stereotypes, but in this case I think it's warranted. Gay men are as superficial as their straight counterparts, probably even more-so. In short, we suck. It's no wonder half the world hates us.

Moreover, the qualities I embody well aren't sought out by most gay men--they're merely a stock answer given in an attempt to appear normal (or maybe it is normal, and it's just men that suck altogether). Few of us actually want a relationship. Just look at the cornerstones of modern gay culture--bars, pride parades--and you'll see that sex is the driving force behind everything, and an average appearance just doesn't cut it. But I'm proabably luckier for it anyway.

So I'm going to consider giving up for a while, and focus on more important things, like school and personal growth. And I'll take the time to consider the reasons why, for the first time ever, I'm wishing I weren't gay.