"You're always smiling, but underneath it looks like you're really sad, like you're about to cry."

I think it's the first time in a very long while that anyone has been able to see right through me, and I can't stop thinking about it. The way he casually by-passed years of defense mechanisms and masks goes a long long way in reaffirming the way I feel about him.

 
Extreme boy confusion!

Last Friday I went to prom at Central, and brought Nick as my date. It was fun. I picked him up and we went to the park for pictures and out to dinner at the Beanery with Cynthia, Holly, and Heather.

When we finally got to prom about an hour late, we found out that Nick couldn't get in because Elisa, who signed him in, had to be there, and was still at Michael's with Sam and Co. So we sat around outside and talked to people as they arrived until Elisa showed up around nine.

The music this year was even crappier than last year, and the DJ only brought songs that were on the song list he got from Students' council, so we couldn't even make requests. Nick and I danced together, and no one said anything negative, so it was good times. I got alot of smiles and thumbs up from people too.

After prom ended, we were off to London for Laser Quest, where I kicked everyone's butts. Going home was scary though, because Sam, Desi, and Doug were racing through downtown London, doing about 120 down Wellington.

Sam dropped Nick and myself off at my house and we tried to watch Angels and Insects but started falling asleep and turned it off.

I kissed Nick during the night and he pushed me away, but the next day we were playfighting, and he kissed me. I don't know what's going on there. Maybe it's because it would have lead to more. In any case, there was still lots of hugging, and cuddling, and falling asleep next to him, which is the best feeling in the world. Even if we're only friends now, I'm really happy that he's in my life.